I wasn't trying to change my health. I was trying to change my body. And that something was not a why strong enough. It was patriarchy’s why. Take up less space. Be smaller. Quieter. Contained. Don’t be too “this” or “that”. Every industry trying to profit from that one “fix” that will make me more acceptable. It didn’t start with me and it won’t end with me but that was the heartbreak. That this fracture and loss of hope was taught to me and stolen from me.